So how...do you get off? Is the first thing you reach for a book? Do you close your eyes and just fantasize? Do you dial up your favorite porn on the computer? I actually do a mix of all 3. Last night, though, I wanted something to watch. And I knew just where to go.
In the early days of trying to find out exactly what turned me on...after so many years of suppressing those thoughts...I stumbled upon a spanking website. Wow. I was glued to the screen. Three orgasms and 2 hours later I bookmarked the website and let my discovery sink in. Spanking was one of my kinks.
About a year later I had a memory surface of sitting there watching cartoons at my grandma's house. There was a spanking scene and it turned me on. I grabbed my crotch the way children do; unselfconsciously. I was spanked twice as a child. It was not pleasant. No erotic feelings at all. When I saw the cartoon I was probably around 6 or 7. I decided that this is what people mean when they say they are "hard-wired" for something. I am hard-wired for spanking, apparently.
Since then, I have reddened a few pairs of cheeks...the riding crop and paddles being my favorite tools. I do love to make a man squirm, get his butt red and hot...and then fuck him.
I'll be in my bunk.
Oh - and the website? For the fans of spanking and the curious...here you go.